Event Updates!
[] August 20, 2007

Hmm, what has Yvonne been up to lately? Well, the reasons behind this lagging blog is that I've been out enjoying the summer!!! After my trip to the States, my friends and I attended a thing called Summerlicious. We booked a nice Excalibur limo to take us to the restaurant, 5th Elementt and then went clubbing at The Docks.


- Rest of the photos [here]!

Weeks later, my friends and I ended up renting a cottage up at Wasaga Beach! The trip was complete with lots of fun water gun wars, rounds and rounds of volleyball, swim photoshoots, and a shitload of steak! One of my Dai Los (big brothers) got a new Eclipse convertible that day and we decided to surprise the rest by showing up in superstar clothing. Adam was decked out in his suit and I had a sexy little black dress and sunglasses! Needless today we made quite and entrance =D Saddest part of the trip was watching the sun set on the last day thinking "Bye 2007 summer!" *sob*


- Rest of the photos [here]!

In other more recent news, Dave and I are back together. I'll just repost my Facebook update lol:

Nothing seems official until you change it on Facebook does it? haha. Dave and I are back together after 4 months of separation. =) I tried my best to think long an hard about my decisions and avoid turning my relationship into one of those "break up/make up rinse and repeat" things. =) I'm here to stay and we've worked most things out. I missed him very much and he's not on Facebook often enough to see this sappy note hahaha. After more than 6 years I've figured out that he's the answer to all my questions and nothing else really matters in comparison. You know the "knight in shining armor" cliche? Well with David, it couldn't be more true.

It was his patience, persistence and our insurmountable love that lead me back to him. I am truly happiest in his arms. When I'm there, it feels like I don't need to be, have to go, or do anything anywhere else.

** Oh yea, that's us in the hail O__o


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ImportFest 2007
[] December 18, 2007

Outside of the internet, I've been going through some pretty rough times and serious emergencies. I will keep that private though so that explains my inactivity. On the brighter side, I attended Toronto's ImportFest! I will post pictures soon but I met some of the hottest stars on the Import scene! I ended up meeting and making friends with sweethearts of BabeBlvd.com, Stephanie Ly, Justene Jaro, Carolyn Savage and next ImportFest cover model, Aria Lee.
- Steph Ly
- Carolyn Savage
- Justene Jaro
- Aria Lee



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Holidays are over!
[] January 10, 2008

My holidays were quite fun! I spent Christmas with David and New Years with my closest friends. We went to Niagara Falls and during the countdown, we were pigging out at the Fallsview Casino Grand Buffet. We had a great window seat and watched the fire works. David promised to call me 5 minutes before the countdown and at 11:55pm, I realized I wasn't getting reception. Panicking, I held my cellphone in my extended arms searching for a signal and praying that the bars would go up. I managed to find ONE signal bar and called him.

I finally got through and the call was lost. 3 minutes until midnight, I was trying to call him and getting a busy signal because he was trying to call me back! All my girlfriends were gripping the table... "Is he going to make it? Is the call going to come?!?!?"

30 seconds until the countdown.

"PLEEEEEEASE DAVE CALLLL!!" I begged squeezing my phone!

15 seconds. THE PHONE RINGS!!

I pick up and he's just in time to count down with me from 10!!!

So the rest of my holidays were quite fun and then it was back to work for me the 2nd of January. Poo. I also found out some more bad news from family, so I'm dealing with that right now. Then I'm also dealing with a friend who is upset with me after I told her my honest feelings on something she didn't want to hear about. Sometimes life really kicks you when you're already down doesn't it? Bad news after more bad news after more bad news.

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The Good and the Bad
[] January 30, 2008

Well, first things first, my grandfather is in the hospital today for a biopsy. He'll be there for a few days. There was a huge tumor in his throat, the doctors think it maybe cancerous but they will have to run tests to find out. That's what the biopsy is for anyway. =( And as luck has it, I've been working more hours than before to help out my boss who can't find another supply and for extra money. I thought 2008 would be a fresh start after a really crappy and traumatic 2007, but ... guess I spoke too soon.

In other news, I'm sure all of you have heard about Heath Ledger. There are probably millions of blogs on him already, but he will be greatly missed. I absolutely adored Brokeback Mountain and Casanova. He had a gifted talent and backed it up with some serious hard work. That is why I will definitely watch Batman: The Dark Knight. My heart goes out to his family and his daughter, Mathilda. The world lost a great actor, a handsome man and a beautiful smile.

Of course, talking about such a wonderful figure's death will inevitably lead to discussions about the funeral protesters, people who think Heath's death deserves attention and shitdisturbers. We can clearly see that the WBC is a crock of shit, a hate group disguised as a religious group. They aren't really religious, they enjoy doing or saying things that provoke hatred, anger, annoyance. Pretty much sums up what children with tantrums do. Secondly, I understand that thousands of people are dying around the world, but not everyone of them has touched masses the way Heath did. There will certainly be more people that care about one person than another, you can't cry fairness on this one. Lastly, one of my pet peeves are people that join memorial groups just to say "Oh he sucks." or "He was gay, serves him right." The logic completely baffles me. Heath, wasn't gay, he played a character who loved a man. In defending this stand, we end up opening a another can of worms. The fact that this day in age, 200-and-fucking-8, humankind still has not learned to accept all forms of love.

Yes, I said accept, not tolerate. People need to accept that gay, lesbian, bi and straight are all forms of love. Tolerating means you are putting up with, which still implies you think heterosexuality is "normal". Aside from terminology, why is this even controversial? It's ridiculous.

Finally, if you don't like the actor and you have no feelings on his death, just leave it be. Is it really necessary for you seek out fans and insult him? Which brings me to another point, do people actually stoop so low as to slander a man after he has passed away? I mean, come ON, as much as you hate people, it doesn't say much for your character if you are disrespecting the dead. I can't believe people like this exist and were raised - no, never mind obviously they WEREN'T raised at all. *endrant*

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Lights will guide you home...
[] February 1, 2008

First, it was a tumour, and then it was cancerous. My grandfather went in for a biopsy and a tracheotomy. All was well and he started to recover. He regained his strength over the next few days and even started to eat thicker foods. He moved from the chair to the bed on his own and was so happy. I left him with a smile and said I’d come to visit soon. I went to sleep reassured that in a few short days, we’d go out and have brunch together like we always did.

I was startled in the middle of the night by a loud ringing. I scrambled to pick up the receiver. The doctor said I was the only contact number and that my grandfather has gone into cardiac arrest. He asked for my family’s contacts and I gave it to him, also double checking the time. 4am.

Our whole family, my mom, my two aunts, my uncle and his wife, my cousin and myself sped to the hospital. The news had been forecasting a storm for today and we started to drive in the thick of it. By the time we got there, it was 6am. He was in the Intensive Care Unit. I held his hand tight. He was fine yesterday! What happened? I screamed in my head.

The doctors had told us that when a nurse checked on him at 3am, he was sitting on the chair and he was fine. 15 minutes later when they checked again, he has no vitals. They’ve remained hushed about exactly what happened. My grandfather was had an oxygen tube covering the tube coming out of his neck, but every time he moved, it would fall out of place (only being held in place by an elastic band). Several times nurses came to give him his needles and pills but didn’t bother to fix the pipe unless I prompted them. Thrice I had to do this over the course of his two-day stay. And my grandfather doesn’t speak a word of English, and at night heading over to the chair, his oxygen tube must’ve fell out of place and he couldn’t find the button to call a nurse.

With a lack of oxygen, logically that was what probably started his cardiac arrest. After 3 minutes of the heart stopping, brain damage occurs. They estimated he had no vitals for 10 minutes. They managed to resuscitate him but by the time we got to the hospital, he was comatose. We stayed by his side the whole day. I held his cold hand and kept telling him be promised to have brunch with me. We all let him know we were there and not to give up.

And then tears formed in his eyes. He knew.

My cousin was rushing back from Ottawa and we told him to wait for her. And I know he tried to hang on as best as he could. Even when my family went to talk to the nurses and the doctor, I stayed with him so I could tell him every 5 minutes that I was still there and that we were all there with him and wanting him to fight.
“GuongGuong (grandfather), you can’t go. You are supposed to teach me how to make your Crab Dish. It’s the only one I eat. It’s the one I like the best. You still have to make it for me. And then we are supposed to go have Dim Sum (brunch) together with Nadia, Natasha, Jon and Vincent (his grandkids). Please squeeze my hand if you can hear me, please…” I begged in Cantonese. And truth be told, though he didn’t squeeze, I felt his finger muscled tighten just a little like he was trying so hard. And then I told him that I knew he was trying…

When the doctor came in and they turned off the monitor because his heart rate and blood pressure was dropping drastically, we all knew… He told us to say our goodbyes and I shook my head. I knew it was ridiculous and illogical but he wasn’t ready to go, we weren’t ready to let him go, and I certainly didn’t want him to leave. He promised. Minutes later, a nurse came in and slowly turned off the oxygen machine. And his chest stopped going up and down. He was gone. I burst into tears and grabbed his arm. We all cried harder, my family telling him to go with Buddha towards the light, towards family and happiness.

Ten minutes went by after the machines were shut and he stopped moving. We were still sobbing, and I rested my head on his hand. Then, he let out his last sigh.

I’m going to miss him so much. It wasn’t supposed to be like this. He was getting better. He didn’t even want treatment. And if we hadn’t admitted him, he’d still be alive and with us to pass the Lunar New Year next Thursday. He wasn’t supposed to go. Who do I blame? What do I do? What do I say? I love you, GuongGuong, your MunMun promised you to be good and I will, I promised you I will, so I will.